If in case you drop my heart accidentally,
I don’t need a helping hand.
I could mend it back in one piece.
I will never ever let you touch it again.
I can’t afford to hurt myself anymore.
I have a heart as hard as stone…
But it doesn’t mean it’s unbreakable…
I always tell myself I could easily forget you.
That you’re not worthy for the grief and the sorrow.
I’ve always been a child crying for every little thing,
But not this time, I won’t let myself…
I can’t wait for the uncertainties of tomorrow.
I try to ignore the sad sceneries in my mind
But there’s no way I could escape from you…
Yes love, you know that I am strong indeed…
I may not fall and I may not cry but I’m not numb.
It doesn’t mean I couldn’t feel the pain…
When I hold the tears, when I force a smile…
When I try to cast you out of my mind…
You know, it hurts me even more…
And I find myself wanting to break…
There’s a part of me crying and pleading.
I keep my ear away for I will only pity her weakness.
But I realize, having her caged won’t help me either…
So just this once I will accept defeat to you love…
I will surrender the words you’ve been longing to hear.
But saying this doesn’t mean that I lose in your game.
For It was never a game to me…
Accepting your weakness takes a lot of courage.
Yes love, I will be brave enough to stand after the fall.
I will be a new creation, thanks to you…
I may be weak but this is my advantage.
My strength is made perfect in weakness…
So I will take pleasure in my infirmities,
For when I am weak I am strong…
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Therese Paulin 